Most of my life I have had a brain that never turned off. It was constantly seeking new engagement, new information. I had to know everything that was going on. Soaking up every particle of every moment. It was exhausting but I couldn’t stop. The only time my brain slowed…
Category: autism
Re-thinking; home
I’ve been obsessed with owning my own home since I was a child. My space, a place I can decorate as I want, have what I want where I want, a place away from the world. I used to fantasise about living like a monk or a hermit having just…
Let’s talk about poop, baby
Did you know there is a correct way to poop? From when to go, how often, how long it should take, what the poop itself should be like – all of it has a correctness that is restricted and if you don’t meet all of these points, you clearly aren’t…
Five is right out
Title is a line from Monty Python and the Holy Grail, a movie about religion. Well, sort of. The only thing I knew about religion growing up was a few prayers I was taught when going to sleep. Four angels at my head, four corners has my bedMatthew, Mark, Luke…
Masking, my experience
I was 4 when I first of the concept of a haircut. As a girl born in the late 60’s I’d never experienced one that I could remember. My hair was down past my shoulders and just something that had always been there. It was a warm day late in…
Pain response changes
Before Autism I was very sensitive to pain. I had a high pain threshold but I felt pain easily. When I knew the pain would end, like when you get an injection, I could handle extreme amounts of pain. When I didn’t know when it would end, like with a…
You’d make a great therapist
No, I wouldn’t. Here’s why. From my 20’s to my 50’s I worked hard on healing my trauma and coming to terms with my childhood. I did therapy, followed New Age thinking about accountability, responsibility, soul contracts and other nonsense. I owned my part in what had happened to me,…