Have you ever asked yourself what is the soul really? Ever stopped to ponder what actually is it and where does it reside in your body? Most people have an answer they just spit out without thinking and never go any deeper than that. I did. No surprises here, I’m…
Category: autism
Decluttering stage 2: Out it goes
Today we had a rental inspection, I was hoping we’d get an extra week before it happened but I knew it was to be around this time. I actually began making changes and tidying up a few days before I got notice because I knew when it did come I…
The problem with psychology
I lost 50 years of my life trying to work out what was wrong with me and how I could fix it. One of the almost universal experiences of autistics is feeling like there is something wrong with us because we don’t seem to ‘get it’ like everyone else. For…
Not a hoarder, but…
you wouldn’t know. You see a collection of stuff in someone’s house, making obstacles you have to weave around and your first thought is, they must be a hoarder. There is another type of messy collector that on the outside looks like hoarder, but has a completely different inner mechanism…
Arthritis kicking my bum
I’ve lost 2 days of activity to arthritis, it began with flaring pain in both sides of my jaw and moved down to my entire spine. It totally wiped me out, spending most of my time in bed sleeping. This flare up has made me realise with a thud, that…
Decluttering on
I was all revved up to begin the next cycle of decluttering when I got a message from the estate agent, we have an inspection in a week. That was the catalyst that started my deepish dive into funerals and death, a slight overreaction maybe, but an accurate reaction to…
In the eye of the perceiver
There is a saying, autistics don’t like being perceived. I don’t agree. I don’t like being watched by people generally, stranger particularly. I don’t like being observed because I can’t tell what you are thinking. I trained myself to be really good at picking up on facial expressions and body…
It’s that time
Content Warning: talk of death Life has seasons. Human lives also have seasons, not that any repeat more a merging from one to another. Infant to toddler to child to teen to adult to middle-aged to senior to damn old to death. Sometimes the liminal space between these seasons has…
Discovering my brain is a blessing
My brain was not built for the current times, it was built to function in a time approximately 100 years ago, which is why I can’t function in this era. I can’t hold down a job, maintain a home and raise a family – at the same time. I barely…
I did it again
I’ve had a history of wanting to make a change in a specific area, thinking about what the end of the process would be like then acquiring what I need to make it happen, before I’ve taken the first steps of sitting down and thinking about it. My ADHD self…